Twenty

When I started this blog… I had abandoned my old one a few days before so my friend wouldn’t see how much of a slag I was. Lol. She knows who she is. I was insecure about my thoughts and feelings. I couldn’t reveal that side of myself to her. I was almost embarrassed to. I treated this thing like a diary, and everything I did or felt was published for strangers. Things I wouldn’t even tell my friends. But it’s easier that way, right? But now I realize that the only person judging me, was me. Self discovery is a long and hard road, and I’m still making my way on it. I’ve come a long way from where I was. I feel like I’ve grown into myself and have allowed myself to be comfortable in my own skin. All I needed to realize is that I’ll never be happy if I try to maintain this image of how I think people should see me. I’ve learned that I have to be honest with myself and others. How else will I know if people really like me for me? Friends should accept you for who you are, and I’ve been blessed enough to have a few friends that do just that. So my 1000th post is dedicated to them, and kentiyadyree.tumblr.com. :-)